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Oct. 9th, 2006 @ 01:12 am (no subject)
An Uncle Is Me
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Aug. 16th, 2006 @ 04:31 pm (no subject)
I got my new camera yesterday, its a canon rebel xt, its the money. thanks for the tip adam!
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Aug. 13th, 2006 @ 03:46 pm (no subject)
went to see deathcab on thursday and it was amazing, they sounded as good live as they do on cd which is high praise. well worth the 5hr round trip to veneta
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Aug. 6th, 2006 @ 10:47 pm (no subject)
You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational.

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Cultural Creative

75%

Postmodernist

75%

Idealist

69%

Existentialist

56%

Fundamentalist

50%

Romanticist

44%

Materialist

25%

Modernist

13%

What is Your World View?
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Jul. 13th, 2006 @ 09:40 pm Giving
One of my brothers,(not biological, as all of you should know by now I have none of those) has a habit of saying "Give love without expectation" In fact he says it so much I think it may in fact be his headline on myspace. I am, I admit, too lazy to actually go into his profile and check.

I don't know if that is an entirely accurate statement, at the very least I think that it needs some qualification.

Something like "Give certian kinds of love without expectation, if you get shit on give yourself some distance and give love of another kind from afar without expectation."

Since I found out my sister was pregnant.... no since I can remember I have tried my HARDEST to get along with her, I have done everything I can for her, loan her money, get her things out of the pawn shop so she wouldn't loose them, make her meals. Take care of her when she can't take care of herself, or when she simply fancies that she can't.

I havan'e cried in a long time, and tonight I felt I needed to over what happend, we'll not disscuss this here, but I found I could only force a small part of the pain past my eyes and down my cheek. At what point do you start to expect something from other people and its perfectly reasonable? If I show her nothing but love and she returns not in kind but in sharp words and actions how long must I suffer her, and still show her love.

Thats a pointless question, its like asking "How hard is trying hard enough???" Until you can't try any more, until you are so god damn exhausted you simply can't take another step. Not when you fancy yourself done, when you are to weary and worn to even have thoughts of being done, and only that next step keeps you going. When that last step falters yet agian and finally fails. I am not going to let myself fail anytime soon.

Here is a poem MR. Smith was Kind enough to share with the world, I like it a lot:


An Apology for the Bottle Volcanic

Sometimes I dip my pen and find the bottle full of fire,
The salamanders flying forth I cannot but admire.
It's Etna, or Vesuvius, if those big things were small,
And then 'tis but itself again, and does not smoke at all.
And so my blood grows cold. I say, "The bottle held but ink,
And, if you thought it otherwise, the worser for your think."
And then, just as I throw my scribbled paper on the floor,
The bottle says, "Fe, fi, fo, fum," and steams and shouts some more.
O sad deceiving ink, as bad as liquor in its way
All demons of a bottle size have pranced from you to-day,
And seized my pen for hobby-horse as witches ride a broom,
And left a trail of brimstone words and blots and gobs of gloom.
And yet when I am extra good and say my prayers at night,
And mind my ma, and do the chores, and speak to folks polite,
My bottle spreads a rainbow-mist, and from the vapor fine
Ten thousand troops from fairyland come riding in a line.
I've seen them on their chargers race around my study chair,
They opened wide the window and rode forth upon the air.
The army widened as it went, and into myriads grew,
O how the lances shimmered, how the silvery trumpets blew!
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Jun. 18th, 2006 @ 02:23 am Modern Day Pharisees, And How Skeptics are The Future Of The Church
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Home - Buble
Skeptics are the future of the church. It has often been asked which is better, to be nothing but a dreamer or nothing but a skeptic. However it is possible to be both, in fact I think if we are to move forward as a church, as a people, nation and world we must be both.

Brian Mclaren paints an amazing picture of the modern church in the first chapter of “Adventures In Missing the Point” He tells the story of a race:

Consider the Parable of the Race. Once upon a time, in a
land of boredom and drudgery, exciting news spread: “There is
going to be a race! And all who run this race will grow strong
and they’ll never be bored again!” Exciting news like this had
not been heard for many a year, for people experienced little
adventure in this ho-hum land, beyond attending committee
meetings, waiting in lines, sorting socks, and watching sitcom
reruns.
Excitement grew as the day of the race drew near.
Thousands gathered in the appointed town, at the appointed
place. Most came to observe, skeptical about the news. “It’s too
good to be true,” they said. “It’s just a silly rumor started by
some teenaged troublemakers. But let’s stick around and see
what happens anyway.”
Others could not resist the invitation, arriving in their
running shorts and shoes. As they waited for the appointed
time, they stretched and jogged in place and chattered among
themselves with nervous excitement. At the appointed time
they gathered at the starting line, heard the gun go off, and
knew that it was time to run.
Then something very curious happened. The runners took
a step or two or three across the starting line, and then
abruptly stopped. One man fell to his knees, crying, “I have
crossed the starting line! This is the happiest day of my life!”
He repeated this again and again, and even began singing a
song about how happy this day was for him.
Another woman started jumping for joy. “Yes!” she
shouted, raising her fist in the air. “I am a race-runner! I am
finally a race-runner!” She ran around jumping and dancing,
getting and giving high fives to others who shared her joy at
being in the race.
Several people formed a circle and prayed, quietly thanking
God for the privilege of crossing the starting line, and
thanking God that they were not like the skeptics who didn’t
come dressed for the race.
An hour passed, and two. Spectators began muttering;
some laughed. “So what do they think this race is?” they said.
“Two or three strides, then a celebration? And why do they
feel superior to us? They’re treating the starting line as if it
were a finish line. They’ve completely missed the point.”
A few more minutes of this silliness passed. “You know,” a
spectator said to the person next to her, “if they’re not going to
run the race, maybe we should.”
“Why not? It’s getting boring watching them hang around
just beyond the starting line. I’ve had enough boredom for one
life.”
Others heard them, and soon many were kicking off their
dress shoes, slipping out of their jackets, throwing all this
unneeded clothing on the grass. And they ran—past the praying
huddles and past the crying individuals and past the jumping
high-fivers. And they found hope and joy in every step, and
they grew stronger with every mile and hill. To their surprise,
the path never ended—because in this race, there was no finish
line. So they were never bored again.


I Mclaren Hits the nail on the head here, in from my point of view he helps to show why skeptics are the future. We as a church have become modern day Pharisees, at best separating ourselves from those who we view as sinful, at our worst trying with laws to separate people from those sins, imagined or not. For a people who claim the name of Christ we have forgotten his most apparent trait, his grace. I say grace not love, and while grace can not exist with out love as it is a part of it, it is that aspect of love most present in his ministry. From the company he kept in his life, to some of the very last words he ever spoke in his earthly life, “Forgive them father they know not what they do,” his grace was blindingly apparent. Why is it we have forgotten his greatest commandment? “To Love The Lord your God with all your heart, mind and soul, and the second is like it to love your neighbor as yourself.”

We would no sooner create a law to separate us from anything we enjoy, than would any person with any vice anywhere. We seem to have an extreme amount of love for ourselves, and we seem to be sorely lacking in grace towards others. This is where the skeptic dreamer comes into the story. The skeptic in them finds it hard to find God in a church so wrought with guilt and disdain for those we were given into this world to bless. A church whose primary goal is to “presort” the wheat from the chaff, those heaven and hell bound, and forgets to bless and love all, ignores its call to work for social justice. The Dreamer in them feels the presence of God in everyday life. As much as they might believe however they can not reconcile the God of TBN with the God who has written his law on their hearts.

The skeptic can now do one of two things, abandon all he knows in his heart, deny God for the sins of those who claim his name, or listen to the dreamer within him and walk a road shown to be full of danger, the road of loving acceptance for all, a road that we know has already claimed the life of at least one person. The skeptic can run the race themselves, helping others along the way, discovering areas of the track that has remained on trod on by those whom have spent their entire lives just past the starting line. The Skeptic is needed to recognize the short comings of the present system, and the dreamer is essential for them to offer alternatives to the readily accepted norm.

There is a place for us all in Christendom, and anyone who says otherwise are those who we were warned about in the Book of Jude.
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Jun. 15th, 2006 @ 10:51 pm (no subject)
So I had my frist iv on Tuesday night, emergency rooms are fun

"YO MAN YO YO LISTEN TO ME, I AINT DONE NOTHING, IM FINE, STOP LOOKING AT ME"

"Hey will somebody shut that guy up"

good times.
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Jun. 10th, 2006 @ 03:49 am (no subject)
Conan O'brien is one of the funniest people ever... the end
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Jun. 5th, 2006 @ 12:53 am Friends are the family you choose for yourself, and sometimes their familys get included!
Life is good, for the first time in a LONG time I am feeling happy about the direction my life is going in. I have confidence in what I am doing and that I will get t where I am going/want to be.

I have been dreaming about a job that would let me go to school, make enough money to live on my own, and save money for the future/take a trip to europe.

My family and many of my friends have heard me say that what I really want in a job is something that is almost Impossible to find. 25-35 hours a week, is flexable with school, and pays more than minimum wage, and preferably a place where I can work with friends, and for someone who cares about me as a person, not just as an employee.

I've found it... more I have been given that.

A friends father offered me a position which has all of those things, and more. Starting next monday I will start working for one of my oldest and closest friends Dad. It will give me more than I could have dreamed in a job to get through school with. I am so grateful and humbled by all the fantastic things that are occuring in my life. It has restored my faith in the individual, and In myself.
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May. 26th, 2006 @ 01:58 am Can't belive they put it in, makes me so happy.
I'm The Juggernaut Bitch.
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May. 14th, 2006 @ 04:40 pm (no subject)
READING..... CAN'T STOP
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Apr. 30th, 2006 @ 01:00 am (no subject)
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Stability |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Orderliness |||||||||| 40%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Mystical |||||||||||| 50%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||| 23%
Narcissism |||||||||||||| 56%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||| 30%
Need to dominate |||||| 30%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||| 16%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||| 36%
Change averse |||||||||| 36%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||| 36%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||||||| 37%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 43%
Paranoia || 10%
Vanity |||| 16%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 50%
Female cliche |||||| 23%
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Apr. 5th, 2006 @ 12:42 am Haha, take that people who want to profit from someones death.
http://www.cnn.com/2006/LAW/04/04/feyerick.insurance/index.html

PWND by good medicine and their own greed!
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Apr. 4th, 2006 @ 01:34 am From My Personal Journal Last Night
I put this Up for Erin W, cause she said she likes to read my stuff. (But The rest of you can enjoy it as well... hopefully)



I lie awake at night going over scenarios in my mind that have no basis in reality.
I try and imagine a world in which all my lifes problems, all my lifes ambitions have been resolved.
A family, a home of my own, a career a book deal.
I try to imagine to imagine my life as it would be, could be when I finally find something that drives me.
I've written in these books since I was 16, since I can remember.
Will they ever come to some consequence? Is all I've written futile?
No, If nothing else it has given me an outlet for an otherwise busy mind.
A mind I can't control, a mind driven to ends even its owner is unaware of.

Heres a bit from Iron and Wine cause they rock...

they will see us waving from such great heights,
"come down now," they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now," but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
machine but the persistent beat it sounded
thin upon listening and
that frankly will not fly. you will hear
the shrillest highs and lowest lows with
the windows down when this is guiding you home

they will see us waving from such great heights,
"come down now," they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now," but we'll stay...
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Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 07:47 am (no subject)
I recently saw the film "Good night, and good luck." The subject of this film is the courage of a group of journalists who took on McCarthy at the height of his regin of terror. Its a really good movie, you should all watch it.
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Mar. 8th, 2006 @ 02:58 pm did this cause Katie wanted me to
Scotty is the kindest person I know
Darla is the bravest person I Know
Andrea is the funniest person I know
Stephed is the most beautiful person I know
Kevin is the wisest person I know
Brent is the most intellectual person I know
Brandon is the most influential person I know
Stephed is the most passionate person I know
Erin w. is the most loving person I know
Nick is the happiest person I know
Match is the most selfless person I know

(steph wins two cause she rocks the work with he south americans and totally rocks it Jesus style/Gets her christ on. (if you haven't seen saved that last sentance won't make sense to you))
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Mar. 6th, 2006 @ 11:53 pm (no subject)
With the recent events in the form of new legislation banning abortion in the state of south dakota I felt that a question posed in one of my myspace communities was relevent to this situation. Here was my response to the question "Is it our place to inact laws on those who do not share in our faith"

1 Corinthians 5:9-13 (New International Version)

9I have written you in my letter not to associate with sexually immoral people— 10not at all meaning the people of this world who are immoral, or the greedy and swindlers, or idolaters. In that case you would have to leave this world. 11But now I am writing you that you must not associate with anyone who calls himself a brother but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or a slanderer, a drunkard or a swindler. With such a man do not even eat.

12What business is it of mine to judge those outside the church? Are you not to judge those inside? 13God will judge those outside. "Expel the wicked man from among you."

In full context of this chapter it seems to me that Paul is addressing an outbreak of amazingly pervese actions INSIDE the chruch in corinth. And speaks on dealing with those in sin within the body. However this verese must be also looked at in the context of what christ said.

Matthew 18:15-17 (niv)
A Brother Who Sins Against You
15"If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over. 16But if he will not listen, take one or two others along, so that 'every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.' 17If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, treat him as you would a pagan or a tax collector.



Also note Gal. 6:1-10

Doing Good to All
1Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5for each one should carry his own load.

6Anyone who receives instruction in the word must share all good things with his instructor.

7Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. 8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature[a]will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. 9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.



So we are to cut them out, but that does not mean that we are not still always to be willing to share our faith and hope with them, and to always be ready to forgive them and bring them back into our fold. All will reap what they sow, and god will be the one to hand out the fruits of our labor, it is not mans job to do so.

Just as christ forgave us so must we forgive them.

As far as outside of the church I think paul makes it clear that we can not impose God's law on them. There are several reasons for this that I see.

A change in the law will not affect a change of heart, and that is to be our primary goal, to share the Gospel with love in hopes of bringing them to christ. In order to bring them to christ we have to have influence in their lives, this influence, a true influence can only come through relationship with those we share with. And relationship only comes through time and mutual respect and love.

Changing the law of the land does not give us relationship, and is not done out of love and respect but fear. Fear that they will never know the love of our God.

This change in law would only sereve to embitter the people christ, not draw them closer to him.

So as far as 1 cor 5 is concerned we are called NOT to impose our beliefs on those outside the faith, and correction of those in our brother/sisterhood should be a gentle and loving process.
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I also feel that this is relevent in reference to the question of civil unions and homosexual marriages. Thought I would share.
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Jan. 29th, 2006 @ 11:14 pm Fuck this....
Who cares?



















I do.
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Jan. 13th, 2006 @ 08:38 pm (no subject)
Bored, someone should call me and then we could go hang out.
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Jan. 6th, 2006 @ 02:57 pm (no subject)
TEN FIRSTS
01. First Best Friend: Daniel B. in K-garten I believe
02. First Hamster: I never had one, my sister did named "Butterscotch".
03. First Piercing: In grade 10 carly Barlow shoved some studs through my ears.
04. First highschool crush: Meghan M.
05. First CD: Smashing Pumpkins: Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
06. First Car: 88' toyota camry
07. First Love: :shurgs:
08. First Stuffed Animal: My popple, I still have him, but I made him punk rock.
09. First Concert: Blink 182
10. First Time Drunk: 6th grade :-/

NINE LASTS
1. Last Beverage: Water I drank while i showered. It was warm but I was thirsty
2. Last Vehicle Ride: Mine, 91 accord
3. Last Movie Seen: K-pax
4. Last Phone Call: I don't know
5. Last CD Played: I am listening to "the Legion of Doom" they are quite good.
6. Last Bubble Bath: Not since I was 5ish
7. Last Time You Cried: I am a little girl, I cry all the time.
8. Last Kiss: Steph, jessica, and erin hit it up on the cheeks on new years
9. Last Concert You Attended: somthing at rock and roll pizza

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your best friends? Not really
2. Have you ever been arrested: No
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: fo' shizzle
4. Have you ever been on TV: the news.
5. Have you ever kissed someone and regret it: nope.
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: did last night... whouldn't you like to know who.
7. Have you ever been sent to the emergency room: nope
8. Have you ever been in a fist fight: I have

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. Jeans
2. t-shirt
3. boxer briefs
4. a smile
5. freckles
6. facial hair
7. some marker on my hand

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. read
2. had some cereal
3. interwebed
4. showered
5. dressed
6. slept.

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Reading
2. Friends
3. Talking
4. My bud Brandon Barlow
5. remembering random crap

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. Brandon
2. Jason P
3. Nickos
4. Jessica

THREE CHOICES
1. eat or drink: Drink some water
2. blonde or brunette: brunette is hotness
3. pink or black: black

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Have some kids
2. Write some books

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. nothing.
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